Peacock

Inventive, creative title is very creative and inventive.

This is like... Really old. >.>;
I drew it way back when my mom had to be taken to the emergency, a bit less than a month before she passed away. It really helped me stay focused and calm while I was in the waiting room with my brother and his girlfriend.
God, I miss her so much. When I think of her, it really makes me happy and proud to know that she was my mother... She was my sword and shield, and my mirror too. And when I think of all that she did for me, I feel all happy and full and warm on the inside... Like she made me worth something.
And then I think of all the other things, inevitably. I think of how much she was hurting, and how I'll never be able to come home and hear her ask me how my day was, hear any of her stories or share any of mine... I'll never be able to make her another drawing, and I'll never hear her tell me how wonderful it is... I want to cry, my god I want to cry so bad, but I just... I almost never do. It's like, one little itty bitty tear, and that's it.

I really miss her. I really, really do. But there's nothing I can do.
So I'll just try to remember all the wonderful stories she told me, all the hugs she gave me, all the things she sacrificed to be able to be at home with me and my brother.
She was selfless and she was strong. She was the most wonderful person I have ever, and will ever know. She was the only constant in my life. And I guess I just have to move on. She'd want me to. :c
But as for me, I just want people to know that she was the most WONDERFUL woman, that she was a true role model! That I honestly don't think anybody in their right mind would dislike her. She was more beautiful than any model in any magazine, any Hollywood actor, anybody I will ever know or care to know.





Sorry the picture's such a crappy quality, I had to take it with my phone.